well, after hanging out with mollie, mel, and grover today, i've realized that i'm ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY SURE that i DON'T LIKE GROVER more than a friend. he's too goofy for me, even though he does like me..

gabe's the best boyfriend i've ever had and i never want to give him up. just sometimes it's really frustrating, you know? sometimes i just break down. i can't say anything because the tears are falling too fast and my minds racing so i can't even think straight.

he told me the last time we talked that his mom and him feel bad that my mom always gives him rides to stuff so we can hang out.
it's my mom's off days when we hang out and she's happy to give gabe rides because she knows i never get to hang out with him.

and what's even more messed is that his mom used to be so hateful towards me. then she got to know me a little better, and liked me after the band trip. now she doesn't like me again? i don't know even know what i do to piss this lady off!

like, i just don't know what to do sometimes. i feel like i'm getting to a breaking point. i'm just going to tear up because i'm so confused. i miss him so much. it's crazy.